What's the last thing on my mind?

2008-11-11T06:18:00.000-08:00

back! haha been a loooooong time since a proper post. promos ended, pw ended. holidays started, hardcore training and playing started :D

trained freaking early in the morning today, with crazy contact drills and of course the much dreaded conditioning. but hahha finally managed to complete it :D went for lunch and it was off to leonard's house.

omfg freaking huge and fully equipped with everything; pool, gym, video room... name it and u got it. lucky bastard (: ate shit load of shit for dinner and pokered the rest of the time. but luck was totally shit. damn good cards and some guailan ppl got even better cards -.-

tomorrow training in the early morning again. then charlene's house! :D:D cant wait to wii again haha. but right now im dead shagged so i've gotta sleep. gonna post more haha. kick my lazy ass if i dont.

2008-11-07T07:52:00.000-08:00

2008-11-06T07:12:00.000-08:00

ISN'T CHERYL'S PUPPY SOOOOOOO ADORABLE?!

happy 3rd month to kimi! (:

2008-07-26T04:10:00.000-07:00

(Each other's) BABIES FOR LIFE! :D

2008-06-30T07:44:00.000-07:00

Big Brovaz - Baby Boy

From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistrywe felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a yearwe spent together
How it’s been, whatwe went through
Although we’ve had ourlittle ups and downs
We’ve still pulled through

Baby girl you’re myworld my everything
I wanna lace you withdiamonds and every ring
Give you everything youdream and fantasize
Cause you can tell methat you love me
Looking in my eyes
You keep it real with me,
I keep it real with you
You keep on loving me,
I’ll keep on loving you
Keep doing what you do,
I feel your whole aura
And I can’t wait to hook up again tomorrow baby - what

[Chorus:]My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keepson passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.

Everytime I look at you,
I can’t believe
I’ve found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that Ispend with you
You make me believe
I have nothing to lose and
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine

Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling this was meant to be
Without you I’d be lost,I need you next to me
Preferably in the house full of luxuries and little kids
From day one I was sprung,
knew you was gonna be one
Cause my heart spoke for the very first time in a long while
And every time you smile,
I can see me walking up the aisle with you carrying my child
C’mon

If you were to go, I don’t know
You’re the only one who
sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makesmy heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love
Ever since the first time,
that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you weregonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,when you’re not by my side
You’re the only boy that’s on my mind
I never knew a love like this, a love so strong
A vision so picture perfect it could never be wrong
Along the way, you’re gonna see you belong with me
I might have to marry you one day baby eh..

2008-06-11T06:18:00.000-07:00

Today I had a little sweet surprise.

And I had a new cash card with a few thousand dollaaaaas in it, and my pin number is my name. For real. :)

She's missing me real bad. /sniffs.

2008-06-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to cheryl!

Okay we can pull off the gangsta look. (:

I love you more and more each day, you know it right?

2008-05-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

THIS BROG IS SO DEAD.

LET ME REVIVE IT!

(:(:

xoxo,cheryl. hahahahaaaa

2008-04-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

it's the weeekends again! it always feels good to know that saturday is nearing right after a high intensity friday in school with 7 freaking long blocks. but at least lessons have been really fun with the class esp with ppl like merrill and jj. crazy bastards who never fail to come up with really really retarded stuff to brighten up the day!

and its freaking annoying cos i havent been visiting the video cos of one stupid reason. I CALL FOR APPOINTMENT THEY DONT PICK UP. wth la make me go down personally to set appointment, waste my time. can utilise it for better reasons like... eating and sleeping.

anyway its RJC vs ACJC tmr morning. hope they really get on and kick their butts, and i know they can seeing the way they play. let's go straight to the finals guys (:

isn't it just sweet to know that you were with your loved one when she first saw a rainbow? (:

2008-04-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

RI lost. again. for 17 years we havent been able to reach the finals. and when we do in the 18th year, we lose. it was a brilliant fight i would have to say, but these are the times where not everything goes your way. i wanna play next year, i wanna win next year.

for the team, for the coach, for the school, for myself, and for you.

2008-04-10T06:56:00.000-07:00

Kiss me gently
Always I know
Hold me love me
Don't ever go

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me

The beginning of a lifetime;
it's been a long way here,
to the start of another long and never-ending journey (:

2008-03-31T23:37:00.000-07:00

Blue-You Make Me Wanna

To start it off i know you know me,
to come to think of it, it was only last week
that i had a dream about us, oh
thats why im here, im writing this song
to tell the truth you know ive been hurting all along,
someway let me know, you want me girl,

everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man and you're the queen,
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need,
baby thats why...

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul
I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

Well i know that these feelings wont end now
they'll just get stronger if i see you again
Baby im tired of being friends
I wanna know if you feel the same,
and could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Dont leave me in doubt

Everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man an youre the queen
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need
baby thats why...

I'll take you home real quick
sit you down on the couch
pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out,
Baby we can make sweet love,
then we'll take it nice and slow
Gonna touch you like youve never known before
we're gonna make love ohhh.

where'd you go?

2008-03-28T07:35:00.000-07:00

been a super roller coaster week! so many things happened, good and bad. sooo sorry about all the things i've done ): feels like shit when this dumb knee makes me treat people close to me badly. heh.

today was killer-fridayy. 4 tutorials + gp + pw + physics lecture. almost killed me la. but lessons never failed to be interesting with a studious YET HAVOC class. the guys are seriously crazy. i laughed for the full chem tutorial while the teacher was going through the questions -.-

gonna see the doc tmr and I WANNA WALK NEXT WEEK! (:

wouldn't it be nice if we could stay in the shelter and watch the rain fall for eternity? and if it stops, we could even catch the sunrise and set together in the crimson red sky.
wouldn't it be nice?

2008-03-25T06:13:00.000-07:00

haha damn shiok had my first FULL-bath on sunday. it's like this stupid opt makes me value the little things you can do in life, like WALKING. so the same old physio, blood-sucking, trying to bend the dumb leg goes on. i wanna walk :(

I can be your hero, baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

2008-03-17T06:23:00.000-07:00

It's hard to answer why, it just is like that.

havent had the time to blog in like years! k one week actually.

last monday was my longg awaited opt! ever since 4th july 2006, about one and a half years? i have been waiting and waiting and i get it at least. but it gets freaking irritating. cos now it hurts and i have to stay home most of them time. but of course, things can only get better (:

top of my thanks list would obviously be my parents. like through everything, all the shit i've been through, the many times i've cried and totally lost it. they were still there for me and were even open about me going back to play again if possible. and not to mention that they paid a hefty sum for the opt, i owe them a lot.

and of course the ruggers, bunch of fools, but you get the idea, they were always there for me. and of course weixiang the bloody ah ma who whole day scare me about the opt, like how pain how pain. in the end... -.- haha thanks anyway... there's chen, jon neo, daph, siyi, merrill, siddiq, zul, SHU-REN who all came down too. shit if i forgot anyone i am damn sorry cos kinda groggy when i was in the hospital.

and the four lil gay pigs, dy, thong,kev and cheryll. and of course THERESSEEE! haha for the cards and the sweets and all those foood everyone brough. i think i gained like 4 kg the past week -.- shit so much conditioning to do when i can start exercisingg.

AND NOW. first day of term 2. people walk past me, look at me, smile THEN WALK AWAY. like wtfff as if this is absolutely normal. haha this kinda stereotypes are built over time i suppose. like people whole day see ruggers in crutches.

CONCLUSION: RUGGERS GET INJURED NO BIG DEAL. LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE PEEING LIDDAT. SO NO NEED TO BE CONCERNED.

not that i am like asking for concern or anything. but yea thats how bad reputations are build. stupid stereotypes about ruggers. i was taking lift down with cheryl this morning, then a teacher gave me the oh-you-sad-little-injured-thangg-kinda-face and asked, "rugby?" and when i nodded my head, she gave the oh-i-shouldnt-have-asked-cos-its-so-obvious-"oh" reply -.-

i think this is my longest post for quite a while. cos my knee freaking hurting now. k no link sorry.

life is sooo colourful. but in future i'd hope to just sit down and JUDGE too.

2008-03-09T09:20:00.000-07:00

i love my friends. they just seem to be able to make my world go round (: thanks dudes.

love ya guys (:

2008-03-09T08:41:00.000-07:00

what a great day! woke up late, one of the few occasions of waking up late late morning (: then it was a great afternoon spent! didnt do much but still rocked! wanted to go for a haircut but the shop was closed, yet again. then met chris, bert and his bro bryan at wisma to shop a little bit! of course not for my own poor(literally) self, but for chris the rich fagg.

then ate like some nucking futs bastard at sakura, some international buffet restaurant. totally rocked! i think i put on like 10 kg after dinner? and we laughed like bloody idiots in the middle of the restaurant. the bunch of ruggers +wx and siddiq. lol played pool at merdian thereafter. HORSED AROUND, HORSEPLAYED HELL LOAD. and the bedok kings (bert and I) won the yck bastards (mainly leo and junchang plus other random ppl) 3-2!

oh yea i almost forgot. WE ARE CELEBRATING CHEW's BIRTHDAY! haha i am so mean. anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY KC^2 (:

k so tmr's the day i've been waiting for the past one and a half year! and my feelings kinda mixed lol. anxiety, nervous, fear(?), excitement etc etc. adiv09 starts tmr (:

2008-03-07T03:46:00.000-08:00

now that i got what i yearned for, i think i might find the hospital stay too freaking boring. haha isnt that how humans behave? very VERY wierd huh. i guess i can only rot on the hospital bed. WHICH IS SO FREAKING BORING! =( if only i had a laptop and a wireless connection there. things would be much better i guess? and in the meantime i should cherish my last "walkable" moments as well as times with my good friend, the knee-lacking-a-ligament. COS ITS TIME TO SAY BYEBYE (:

i shall gym tomorrow! for the last time. and does anyone know where to get AFFORDABLE free weights? if i am too rot at home. i guess i should at least do something constructive with my mobile upper body huh, esp my mouth. lol.

what am i supposed to do?

2008-03-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

first was weixiang. then now keith. AND IM NEXT! haha most probably having my opt next mon. really hope to get back to rugby real soon. but at least now those fucking insensitive bastards can stop calling my paika. cos if they do, i am going to hurt them real bad (:

last econs test! and i'll be free! but these two days got shit timetable lol. gonna pull through!

today's a good day. and it has been a GREAT week (:

2008-02-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

wow. what a fri afternoon/evening. everything was so mind boggling, thought provoking. and it all makes me wonder. but good luck for it tmr anyways (:

today was HARDCORE tutorials day. which turned out to be kinda slack. bloody hell after gyming and swimming yesterday i was freaking shagged already. reached home at like 9 and decided to start chionging homework, hoping to finish the gp research, econs case studies and mugging for math test today. not that im freaking kiasu for anything but not doing any of the above 2(excluding the math test) WOULD HAVE resulted in white slips. so i decided to not get two white slips in a day heh. managed to crap out gp research before i slept, nothing else.

SO, i decided to wake up earlier to finish econs case studies, for white-slip woman. but in the end only managed to finish one out of the two, so i had to resort to sympathy (: and i went to school without mugging for math at all.

AND IN THE END. neither of the two homework was gone through la -.- so much for being freaking hardworking. the only thing that i could take away was the breeezyyy math test and PREGNANT PW TEACHER ON MATERNITY LEAVE! (:

damn it. another time tomorrow. 7th time im hoping? (lol why am i so hopeful?)
and im scared. like freaking scared.
i want it to be done now. straightaway.

what if i cant have it this year?
what if i cant do it for them next year?
what if, what if...

2008-02-26T04:48:00.000-08:00

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
_______________________________________________________________

whoo just gymed with andrew and chen. but bloody hell still damn fat. maybe i should start field training, minus the contacts and footwork.

and sadly the class camp is over ): i didnt go for it cos of my knee (again). but like damn happy i ponned cos according to my classmates it totally sucked! once they got back to school they started to bitch about *erhm hmmmm* over lunch lol. bloody jokers in my class. sooo the new timetables are out, but my freaking lazy ct didnt give it to me cos he was lazy to walk out of the staffroom -.- so gotta wait till tmr or sth. but at least its quite confirmed that there are not tests tmr! hopefully my timetable didnt change much, otherwise there would really be nothing to look forward to in rj lol.

and im like fucking scared now? everyone seems to understand topics that i dont. like what the hell is wrong with me -.- better start working harder or my a's will just die, like how my chinese did. heh. so these two test weeks better be productive! and here's me calling for all muggers out there to freaking START MUGGING WITH ME! life sucks ):

Its so confusing.
Don't just leave people alone to do it.
Sometimes telling them what to do really does help.
Don't assume that people can always work things out.

2008-02-22T06:37:00.000-08:00

yesterday was like super chionging homework but for nothing night.

like woke up half an hour early =B to mug chem(of RELATIVE significance!)

then schoool was sooo freaking boring.

and kev came!

went to watch fool's gold with him together with cheryl, dylan and daphhhee duck!

she has like some super paranoid reflexes.

so give the duck a scare for real fun (:

then emo-ed and talked cock(philosophies) with kev over dinner @ bedok corner!

cheer up dude (:

2008-02-19T06:00:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry I'm bad,
I'm sorry I'm blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back.
_______________________________________

words are like taking a shit in the toilet.
when everything comes out it feels sooo much better.
But that's where constipation comes in,
and screws up everything ):

2008-02-18T05:26:00.000-08:00

Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark
I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
_____________________________________________

yayy a new adidas bag at last.

and hurray i dont have to go for physio anymore!

like until i go for my opt, i'll just do my own stuff.

and of course...

goood luck for all the o'levers tmr!

2008-02-15T17:36:00.000-08:00

i should have been training now.

running henemolas(however you spell it),

doing team-runs,

fooling around with my bunch of idiotic teammates.

but i am lying on my bed blogging.

teeth not brushed, body not washed.

dont mean to be discriminating,

but even hockey girls are training.

heh.

So much for determination and faith.

___________________________________________________________

alright i am done with ranting.

take 5 yesterday@ pasir ris park!

didnt do much other than reminiscing.

playing the stupid spider webs and wierd wierd swings.

then saw people... playing sports =( (ooops!)

even though, the soccer matches were realllyyy enjoyable to watch.

played rounders after that with a rugby ball.

then a huge bunch of us went town to catch jumpers,

which was quite coool but got boring..

then played pool a bit and went to meet cheryl and daph at bugis with dylann.

(and i feel like im blogging for the sake of blogging itself. lol)

went for dinner with kev at bedok corner after that.

had like super intellectual talks about life and death.

lol. and the question that got me dumbfounded for a while was...

would you die with regrets if you were to die now?

2008-02-13T02:45:00.001-08:00

I don't understand, why
See it' s burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this, is coming to an end
And it's better for me to,
let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

its gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
Its been a long time comin
but we done been fell apart
I really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change-e
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurtin' baby, I ain't happy baby
'cause there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When the feeling ain't the same
and your body don't want to
but you know, gotta let it go
'cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that its through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta Let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same
find myself
Callin'her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
And all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I think I made a mistake
Now it's too late
Now she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now now

To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my boo-ooh
you've been gone for too long
It's been fifty eleven days, umpteen hours
Im'a be burnin' till you return

2008-02-12T07:25:00.001-08:00

LIFE SUCKS.

2008-02-10T06:50:00.001-08:00

WOOOHOOOO!

just finished soloing the stupid chem project.

with my retarded partner hiding dunno at which ulu malaysian kampong.

haha damn shiok. next time i swear im gonna make him do everything else.

and its timeee to change my blog skin.

its so emo that whenever i try to blog,

something emo comes out.

i cant help it.

not my fault.

today went mugging with cheryl at t3!

gay pics are obviously at her blog haha =)

stupid pig msged me at 1140 telling me she just woke up.

when we are supposed to meet at 12?!

so she was late as usual

then KEVVY CAME therese-less.

and he actually did more work than us.

bloody hell. maths and physics sucks.

totally owned the both of us.

AND THE HOLS ARE OVER.

back to boring school life =(

2008-02-09T08:50:00.001-08:00

Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

2008-02-04T06:08:00.000-08:00

all the changes happening in life,
significant or not,
impactful or not,
enjoyable or not,
are just things you cant control,
no matter how much you hate them.

school's been pretty retarded.
all the no-brainer bitchings and bullshittings,
whenever time's spent in the canteen.
and today was like SHIRT-Day.
5 new shirts happened to appear in my bag suddenly,
and now im freaking broke.

screw pierre cardin.
60 bucks wallet which was only 5 days old decided to walk out on me.
so all my pay flew away =(

thanks cheryl for all the gay moments which unemoed me though =)

2008-01-24T07:08:00.000-08:00

it's time to stop fucking whining and regretting,

cos it's just too late.

move on, BITCH.

and it feels so long without you.

2008-01-18T07:19:00.000-08:00

damn it man super eventful day.

first it was the swelling of my knee.

die sia. woke up cant feel my leg.

then next thing i knew was that i started limping.

lectures and tutorials were alrightly boring.

and THEN. after school,

i was fatefully walking to buy food in the canteen.

then terence walked past and i wanted to hug him or sth.

then this girl ran straight into my arms when i flung them out.

and BOM! she was on the ground.

then she had like blueblack on her eye after a while.

i was like freaking guilt-stricken and bought her like a drink.

THEN WHEN I WAS WALKING TO RAJA BLOCK,

I SAW HER HAPPILY PLAYING FRISBEE AT THE AMPHI!

-.-" thanks for making me worry so much.

then the angel mortal thing.

i got a stupid letter from my angel

and have a feeling my angel knows who i am.

and i dont wanna write to my mortal.

cos i dont even know what's really happening.

whatever lol.

smile for life!

2008-01-15T01:13:00.000-08:00

sigh.

waited for a year, 6 months and 1 day exactly.

now gotta wait for another fucking 5 months.

this is fuck shit.

i give up.

2008-01-09T04:29:00.000-08:00

then...and now...

like what cheryl likes to ask...

OMG WHAT HAPPENED!

lol.

2008-01-09T03:16:00.001-08:00

how screwed is this.

first day of school and i was down with fever that night.

first it was og.

now its class.

now im stuck with considering whether to drop chem and take geog.

sigh.

i miss holidays.

2008-01-08T04:36:00.001-08:00

heh. why is everyone so enthu about their jcs.

enthu about their ogs.

enthu about their classes.

while i shit around in wherever i am.

life is just so complicated.

i dont even know myself well.

2008-01-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

tmr is like the last day of orientation (WOW!)

omg fking funny. just watched "the noose" on channel 5.

when i felt so damn bored.

something in my life made me laugh like there was no tmr(???)

they were talking about ac using the haka before matches.

said sth like scrawny high school boys performing the sacred maori dance or sth.

then suggested them to perform macarena and pole dancing etc.

screwed up lol.

sigh tmr's gonna be a long day.

2008-01-05T06:54:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM TAIWAN AT LAST!(not)

just have been freaking lazy these few days. with many Ss.

so i stoppped posting :D

orientation has been really F....

reaking boring.

cant believe i was actually quite enthu about it.

until everything happened. like SIAN.

it has been like post-birthday birthday party with kev and cheryl etc,

then the crazy ass rugger bbq at my house which was t3h pwnzxz.

finally new year's party.

cant believe two months went past just like that.

i want my holidays back :(

anyway here are some random pics by crazy cheryl (alliteration)

=an attempt for me to stop make my blog a stagnant place.

(i should change the link to like visitifyouhatechanges.blogspot.com)

finally, it's a pair of pig trotters on flats :D

-random- why is everyone asking me for my white suit?

i mean why even be so enthu for o'nite :P

hopefully tmr doesnt get too boring.

nighty nights ppl. promise to keep this thing alive :D

2007-12-20T05:21:00.000-08:00

flying off to taiwan tmr!

hopefully i can have post bdae cum xmas parties when i get back.

stupid late travel plans never fail to screw my celebrations up. heh.

cya soon, world!

2007-12-10T18:05:00.000-08:00

gosh i am just so freaking bored.

and i realised i am blogging like once a month or sth -.-

dumb shit. work's fun but i need more fun.

can somebody date me pls :(

2007-11-24T05:56:00.000-08:00

dont know what's my dad doing to the internet connection.

so i cant join the guys on bnet cos its too lag :(

so i've decided to revive this almost dead blog. :D

it's the holidays! so this blog went on a holiday too.

aint ma fault. but life's been getting a little boring.

either stone at home. or go out and fool around.

is there something interesting to do?!

other than working.

and should i hold one big chalet and get a huge party going?

(at least for the closer ones :D)

for my LONG-WAITED 16th birthday. lol.

one more bloody month. i'm such a young brat.

anyway... this shit i kinda true lol.

Lets101 Quizzes - Quizzes For Fun

handsome - of course :D

smart - duh.

loves to dress up - okay la.

loves to bust - NO WAY :D my knee's busted though.

easily bored - ... what am i supposed to say.

intelligent - :D

fussy - so not.

seldom shows emotions - lol. i'm emo!

okay we shall stop here. the rest will get annoying.

i promise to blog more often!

enjoy ya hols dickies :D

2007-11-06T22:22:00.000-08:00

yay at last i managed to sleep till 12.
always woke up at around 9 without alarm clocks.
i think im crazy.

yupp monday's grad night was quite fun.
but fking 4B saboed me for the "One minute of fame" thing.
where every class i supposed to nominate one guy from the class.
and perform something for that one minute.

4A didnt sabo anyone. so nice. not like my class.
SO SADLY, i was the first to go.
and i had no fucking idea what to do.
until zhengfeng shouted something like STRIP.
and coincidentally, they were playing sexy back.
so the crazy ole me started a half-striptease+gay catwalk.
bloody hell must have been an adrenaline rush.

AND THANKS TO MS SIM, i was made to perform an encore. super gay.
if i can find a video on that, i MIGHT post. =D

so yea camwhored like never before.
here are the pics dudes.

BEATRICE and I =D

ruggers! gonna miss them. only for the next year i hope.

me, yong jian, yuhui, japheth

tablemates and ms sim(the one who made me stripped again)

tablemates

daryl teo. zhengxuan. me. junchang.
(dunno why so blur.)

zhengxuan. daryl teo. me and my lubxx. benji

jr bob koh and I

ryan teo and I

dunno what was that for.
yea so that's christian and I.

me and my other lubx, zhengfeng(who requested the tease)

benji and I.

oh so the six of us, junchang joined later, decided to take uber kawaii nehzx shots.

ATTEMT 1. FAIL!

ATTEMPT 2. actually quite goood already. dunno why we took another one.

ATTEMPT 3. =)

karliang and I. with the indian(adj) seetow at the back.

guangyu and I.

seetow and i trying to act like indians with the shawl.
then here came the unwelcomed anshing.

thats about it. the final one here is the grad night stripper.
he's a crazy bastard.

2007-11-02T06:28:00.000-07:00

yupp. so i guess this is it.
end of the four years spent in ri.
it seemed so arduous when you were in it,
and now when you look back,
it seems to have zoomed past.

it may just be a change of school.
a school just next door.
but it'll still be very much different.

of course i do look forward to RJ.
but things will just be different.
and wait.
this doesnt seem to be affecting me the most.

like wtf.
the last time i wear and RI uniform.
the last time i wear an RI badge.
the last time i am entitled to use the gym.
(too bad it was closed)

...
i would never again say i love you.
i would never again take bus thirteen from kallang,
on my way home, just to comfort you for screwing your geog paper.
i would never again be celebrating our monthly anniversaries. heh.
i would never again call again at night just to check if you are asleep.
i would never again msg your phone again just to say i missed you.
even when i know i wont get replies.

sigh. so many i would never agains.
life's like that.
it sucks.
heh.

"Reason For Breathing"

If I cried like a baby would you change your mind?
If I told you I'm crazy would you come running back to me?
The harder I try to break away, the more I get lost in yesterday
The man that you know is just a shell, living without your life is hell

I turn on the radio just to take the hurt away
Another night and I'm missing you
Girl, it's killing me, well

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna die tonight, but I think I might be going down
'Cause the only one I ever cared about is nowhere to be found
I don't wanna close my eyes 'cause I might not see the light of day
I'm almost out of air
You're my reason for breathing
You're my reason for breathing

I don't wanna go clubbing, I got no one to dance with me
I don't wanna go shopping, I got no one to spend my money on
Spending my time with one glass of wine
Playing solitaire just to ease my mind
Poured one for you, but I drank that too
Anything to kill the pain of losing you

I turn on the radio just to take the hurt away
Another night and I'm missing you
Girl, it's killing me

[Chorus 3x]

So I'm reaching out on this distant line
Hoping deep inside your heart's gonna find a reason
To keep me breathing
But I'm lost in this pain and I don't have much time
I'm so tired of walking this same old line
So I'm taking my pride, gonna throw it aside
Please let me breathe girl, I'm sorry

[Chorus 2x]

Baby girl, don't leave me standing here
I'm barely breathing, girl, I'm running out of air
Baby girl, don't leave me standing here
I'm barely breathing, girl, I'm running out of air

2007-11-01T03:24:00.000-07:00

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

it all started 7 months and 22 days ago.
heh. remembered i wrote a post about me
not able to be gay. now i can.
you'll be missed terribly, ex-baby. ;(

2007-10-21T06:01:00.000-07:00

just four days after the previous post.

it seems so ironic.

its been just one day and everything changed.

doubt i will be able to do much in this state.

guess i'll just have to give up next year's season.

life suck's man. why do i have to live it the way i don't want to.

sigh anyway thanks kev and cheryl for popping by this afternoon.

felt much better with you two gaying around =)

please man, at least let me have the opt.

2007-10-17T05:58:00.000-07:00

first day of school after eoys and half the cohort ponned school.

pwnzz right. but that was the right choice though.

2 hours of talks and 2 hours of chinese.

complete TURNOFF.

and the next two days are full of talks too.

too bad my dad doesnt allow me to pon school. what to do? rot lor.

stoned in school for quite a while until cheryl finished her physics test.

take so long! make me feel like some no life emo kid watching ppl play soccer.

so went town to get some presents and baking materials. =)

(oh ya lets have a halloween party after chi's o's okay? haha)

SURPRISING? haha im gonna try baking cookies.

for -- ----. hope this surprise is not unveiled!

i mean its me. W O N G K H A I C H E O N G baking cookies.

how own is that. hopefully they dont poison people.

but sure better than anything jun chang makes la. haha.

so yea the arduous journey embarks tmr evening after physio. heh.

took pictures with the buckley EXCO after school today.

and here they are.

i may not look like the super house-enthu kinda guy.

but i joined the exco cos i hate losing.

i never liked to lose.
(esp this year's season. sigh, what to do?)
maybe just cos i hide it well so not many ppl notice.

but i daresay i put in whatever i could do to help the house.

we may have lost the consecutive 4th time in these four years.

but at least i tried to salvage it.

who care's? losing sucks.

and im not going to do that again next year,

and next next year.

let's do it guys.

2007-10-14T09:07:00.000-07:00

okay i swear to keep to this blog for a year.

contract lasts till oct 15 2008!

but no promises about frequent updates =)

many many thanks to cheryl for ideas on this blog though.

saved me loads of brain cells and time =) THANKS.

oh yea anyway! everyone come link me thanks. haha.

and of course tell me your links. i am lazy to go dig them out.

"holidays" are so fun. especially when you dont stay at home like a freaking no-lifer.

maybe i should learn how to cook.

like jun chang who cooked his spaghetti sauce without tomatoes =)

but i need a damned job now.

so far i only have kenneth's offer at 6+ bucks per hour.

I NEED MORE MONEY!